“I want deeper connections with the people around me. I need to reach out more. Because not everyone leaves. Sometimes if you reach out, the person you’re trying to reach will be right there waiting.”
it’s been a while since I didn’t write my feeling or expressed what’s been going on in my life
usually when I feel sad or depressed I just all these feelings here but I’ve been buckling up so much that I feel like having a heart attack
I need some space, I need some rest from everything, I’ve been avoiding meeting my friends who always give me happiness and freedom to be myself with them, I’ve been avoiding anything like doing my hobbies like drawing or painting, it’s like I’m going numb and nothing is making me happy anymore
lately, there are a lot of things happening and I don’t know to digest that, and I feel like I have no one to talk to or to express my fear, it’s always the feeling of being annoying or a burden to someone, trying to open up to someone and not receiving the reaction needed can lead to a huge heartbreak especially if it’s from someone close to you
I’m really trying not to get the attention from anyone, even so, I want some of that from time to time but feeling like complaining or being negative can be hard lately because people see me as someone calm and positive, a good listener and can give good advice but I really need that from time to time, I feel like exploding from holding up this huge part of myself but that’s okay I will be fine
